Dear someone that could love me for me,
Some would say that I am picky, some think I am a prude. Even heartless as well or, maybe just not interesting. Maybe even hard to love. A lot even say that I am hard to get along with??? I’m trying to figure that one out because I have many people approach me asking me for advice or to simply talk, so I don’t know about that one. Intimidating to some and occasionally a royal B!T#H. That I’m not pretty enough or I don’t apply myself every day to look pretty. I’m too uptight and need to loosen up. To wear clothes that will show more skin.
So, I may be old fashion in a way that others my age or younger could call me a prude but it’s just me, knowing what I want and know what I won’t tolerate. I think it’s called boundaries.
Yes, I prefer to be single until someone approaches me with a brain. Sure, people have pasts that they are not proud of but at least I changed mine to where it will not continue to keep me stuck in my own. I will not blame my Ex’s for my past traumas, I will move on so I wouldn’t pass it out to the next person.
So, what am I looking for, if I am not what People think I am from list above.
Well, my check list is this:
- Someone who is not arrogant
- someone who I can talk/connect to
- someone who challenges me to be a better person
- someone who is loyal
- someone who is honest
- I would like someone who isn’t intimidated by me or my forwardness
Notice how I didn’t say anything about physical characteristics. Sure, I would love to have a guy who is taller than me with light colored eyes, dark hair and skin with broad shoulders. But unfortunately looks fade and all we are left with, is the persons soul.
That could be the reason as to why I don’t apply myself. I would like someone to notice me for me. Especially for when we meet for our first date. Now I would dress up nicely, like knockout, wow! Come in with style! Well at least to me, I would look amazing!
I think I am waiting for something different but something spectacular, like a book character or a movie character. Yes, I know those guys aren’t real but still, even those characters have to come from somewhere?
I do hope that if we do meet, I hope that you will be patient with me. For right now, I’ll wait.
Sincerely the lonely side that won’t shut up.