When you are at your lowest point

Dear me,

I’ve noticed that you have been exhausted. Worried that you’re going to lose things like your car, house, mind, or most importantly and hopefully not, your kids.

Sure, money is tight, but you have been in harder places before, and you have always seemed to make it through to laugh about it later. Although through that hardship, regardless of what it was, you still made it. And so, you can do it again!

Yes, some of us may not be in our twenties anymore but we all had something that we didn’t have before. Do you remember what it was?

For me it was my daughter. She was my main focus, a goal per say, to stay in balance, in order to get my hussle on and do what I had to do. Everything I did, I did for her. Then when things were back in order, I rewarded myself.

So, what is it that you want to focus on to reach your goals to bring back the balance in your life? It can be anything, self-image of improvement, a dog, your own kid, a significant other, the possibilities are endless. So don’t feel that you are stuck on just one thing or that you have to pick one thing. You can have as many as you want! Whatever helps keep you motivated.

We all know that there are many opportunities out there, but we have to hunker down, get over our fears of failure and try something new and just do it.

Sure, you may not know a lot about computers or apps or even know where to start. The way I think about it is, that things will always change and you’re going to have to get over it and get on board or go down sinking with the ship. For some, that is what has to be done to get in gear of what needs to be done. We ourselves become our own life rafts. Only we can change what we want to do and when we want it to happen. We just have to sidestep out of our comfort zones or our fears and just enjoy learning something new to start something new.

In my eyes, you’ve already begun. Want to know how I know? It’s because you are here! This, right here, is the first step in wanting to do something about it. Getting the courage from a complete stranger, who believes in you, to help you take that next step.

So, what do you say? How about we shake off those fears and insecurities and get out there and show the world who we really are!

You got this!

Sincerely me

The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe

So, for this first post in my book selection, I want to choose the very first book I have ever read and actually enjoyed. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, by C.S. Lewis. Illustrated by Pauline Baynes.

When I was in the fourth grade, I had a speech problem. So, to “help” with that problem, my teacher wanted me to read out loud, to the book of her choice. Needless to say, I dreaded third period when it was a “free” period for everybody else, while I had to go to speech class. She made me read, “The Babysitters Club,” From the 90’s, by Ann M. Martin.

Now there is nothing wrong with the book series, but it just isn’t my sort of book to read. With a twist of fate, that changed my course to reading, that particular teacher fell ill to a rather bad flu. Causing her to not be at school for two weeks. I have to say I would never wish ill to anyone, but I am glad that she did.

The substitute teacher that had taken her place, was really good at her job and I felt that she was genuine in wanting to help me. She noticed straight away that I was not into the book at all. She then told me to follow her to the library. There she told me to pick out five books that intrigued me. After picking out the five she had me sprawl them out and pick one for me to read to her and the others for home, bus, my room and free time in class.

The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe was what I read to her, and I had read it fluently. Not one word had a stutter or a word mis-pronounced. It had taken a full week, and I was able to read out loud and not feel embarrassed for when we read out loud in class.

I had a connection to Lucy, with her sense of wonder and her being brave to go through the wardrobe and then brought along her brothers and sister. Getting to know Aslan the lion and Mr. Tumnus the Faun and of course the White Witch, all introduced me to a whole different world of what was different. Which to me, being different is a huge acceptance in my life. I love all things that are different or unique.

In this book there is betrayal between the siblings but it’s the process of forgiveness that which brings them back together. There is of course good versus evil and the many tests and challenges to overcome the evil to become good, not only for oneself but for, in this case, the kingdom. For that kingdom they all had to learn a lesson to stay true to themselves.

They all had a characteristic about themselves and like all of us, they are all different. For instance, Lucy, my favorite, she was known valiant or the faithful one. She never gave up on Edmund and she always kept wanting to go and save him.

Susan was known for her gentleness. C.S Lewis described it a bit in the beginning of her character. During this time, they were in the middle of a war, so you can understand her reasoning of not liking to fight but rather find a peaceful solution to any situation. Being the Eldest daughter also meant her taking a role as a mother figure for her younger and older siblings.

Peter was known for being the magnificent, to me was not my favorite character in the book but I still kept reading. He saved his sisters, several times, he did end up fighting in the war with the white witch and he did eventually own up to his mistakes for when he was wrong. That was probably why I didn’t like him cause in the beginning, he did no wrong and he was right about everything. Though I digress….

Then there is Edmund, known for the just. Reasoning so is because of his ordeal with the White Witch. He has now gone through the worst part to which it changes his perspective on situations. Making him a great asset to judgement and counseling when ruling beside his siblings. During the book he was nasty and cruel to his siblings but when he realized what was going on he slowly turned into the good guy.

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Don’t let me tell you the story. You’re going to have to read it yourself. Maybe you’ll get a different outlook on the book. You would probably connect to the other characters like I connected to Lucy. And no cheating, on watching the movie, Books will always win when it comes knowing the inside scoop.

Let me know down below as to which character you connected or liked the best and why?

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What are my hopes for this blog? Well, the purpose of me starting this was for my own mental health. I would write every day, Monday through Friday and leave Saturday and Sunday to either relax or write my stories.

It started out that I was in a very bad place, mentally to which it led to it being physically. To which it wasn’t good for Haylee, my work, friends, or my family. So, something had to change, or I would lose everything.

So, I started this journey to make myself feel better. I then realized that the people in my life, family, friends, patients, we all have problems. Some problems to which we are too focused on the problem to find a solution, so we can heal properly.

Then there are the many personalities within my life to which each one handles everything differently. Yes, many people have different opinions and it’s alright, it’s good to be different. You will be able to learn different things on how to handle each situation if you are open to learning from it.

I want people to know that it is okay to think differently and that they are not alone. More importantly that they are not alone in anything that they come across. If they are feeling down, sad or if they have something going on in their lives. There are other people who may or may not have the same problem, but their solutions could help you within your own problem. Manly that there is hope and that they shouldn’t give up on themselves.

I even do letters to those I can’t talk to anymore. Even letters to which I wish that I could say but didn’t have the time or I didn’t know what to say. Maybe then one day I will gather up the courage to actually say what I want to say. For my peace.

There are too many lives that have been lost due to indifferences. Lost to unanswered questions. I just want to help those who don’t understand or don’t know what to do to get help. To let people know that they may seem like they are alone, and nobody cares but there is someone out there who does. You may know them, you may not but there is always someone who is willing to listen. Who knows that someone could end up being your next friend, your next support group or to whatever you need but there will always be someone for you.

I hope that one day there will be someone who sees or reads my work and realize that they are beautiful, wanted and special. That there are different options to this life. That you are not useless, that you’re important and you’re not alone.

Till then, be safe be well.

Introductions

Hello there,

I have to say this will be my very first blog post and let me tell you, I am terrified but excited. So, in other words mixed feelings. This is something new to me, but I know when I continue to work on it, I know I will get better at it. I am a single mother, which is a fulltime job, who works an even longer fulltime job and has many interests. Like many of us I have come to a fork in the road that can either be my demise or my salvation. It’s how I will approach it, that will lead me to my peace, which I am desperately seeking.

I have been told by many of my friends, family and complete strangers that I live an unusual life and the way I approach it is not always how others would approach it themselves. That I give “perspective” a whole new word, according to some. I try to see the best in everything and hope for a better outcome. Now don’t get me wrong I am not a “let it slide” or “chilled glazed peace-lover”. I take what is given and I make it my own. Sure, I may complain about it but who wouldn’t in the process but it’s the work I put in it to make it what it is. So, some would say that I am hardheaded or stubborn and they may be right. I am Sagittarius I don’t follow what other people do or say, I do the complete opposite. Life is so much more interesting when you don’t follow the rest of the world. Wouldn’t you agree?

So, with this new journey I am about to embark on, I will cover most of my life. This place will cover Books that I have read or were recommended to me. I am an avid reader. I read a total of 5 books a week. A book for each room and I am talking about actually hard cover, books that you have in your hands. The kind you flip the pages, not swipe. I do listen to audio but only in the car, doing dishes or laundry.

Another interest of mine are quotes!! Everybody has a different meaning, opinion or experience when it comes to quotes. I will post a quote, who it is by and write what they mean to me, and I hope that you would be able to tell me how the quote makes you feel.

As I mentioned before, I am a Sagittarius, and as a Sag we love to travel. With two full time jobs, sure it can be tricky, but I am one that is fine exploring different parts of my home state of Ohio. Though there are many and I mean many times I have commented that if a friend suggests that we leave Ohio I am the first to be on board in wanting to get out of the state! But in the meantime, I will either hop on my motorcycle or in my car and go. It may not be exciting as Fiji or Bali but trust me one day I. Will. Go. For right now I want to see what, and I mean what, Ohio has to offer besides its corn fields and cows roaming. I know there is more than just that here, but it’s the experience that thrills me. An even bigger plus, it’s always amazing when I have friends to explore with. Making it even more exciting!

Among my busy life, the most important thing that keeps me grounded is my daughter. I have mentioned that I am a single mom, some would say by choice, but I have a different saying in that, but I’ll save that for later. I have a lot of people ask me as to how do I do what I do with a full-time schedule? Well, there is a lot I can say on that, but I’ll tell you later on what all I do to keep it all balanced. Oh, believe me it’s not easy being a single parent but it has it awards. On here I would like to help those who are new to being single moms, or single parent, to let them know that they are not alone and that there are MILLIONS of us out here and are willing to help. “It takes a village” and they weren’t kidding. You will find this in my ‘things to do with your kid, ‘ Tab

With being “Busy” you can say that I have many Hobbies. When you hear people say that “they are bored” I never quite got that. Like how are you bored? If I ever have a spare time, I always find something to do that I enjoy doing. That either buy myself, with my daughter or with my friends. There is always something to do and I am not talking about chores either. There is a time and place for that but that’s not for here.

Now, as I mentioned before, I was told that I give great advice. I work in the medical field, and I have to say mental health is a must have acknowledgment. There are so many of us who cannot decipher on how to go through life when life gets hard. Sure, there are therapist, which are great, but there are some who can’t afford to go. Yes, we all have friends we can go and talk to but there is a limit as to what you can talk about, in some cases. So, on here I hope to be that anonymous outsider to help with your troubles. All there is to it is that you would contact me, I read through it, and I would publish my answer to your question to the best of my abilities. The good the bad scenarios and I would have you map out on how you would want to proceed. Now I wouldn’t blast your name or your troubles, I would of course keep that all to myself but the reasoning to publishing it would show that you are not the only one with the problem. Who knows maybe your problem could be someone else’s solution. We are all on this earth, why can’t we all help one another to achieve something better? This will be under my “contact me” or “Dear me, or it’s ok,” tab.

So, I hope this finds you in great spirits and I hope that this blog of mine will come to give you some relief. That is my goal.

Until next time, take care